Keeping Me Sane

Being all emotionally upset...It keeps me sane...It controls me...It makes me restrict myself from going overboard...I don't like it..But as some say...Remedies are always bitter...I need to be like this..At least for the time being..So that i can realize and restrict myself if things get out of hand...I don't want to keep this up..Is anyone out there??!!I cant bear this kind of distress...It is so agonizing...But of all..I need to keep this feeling..If not..I may run wild...Totally free...Like a boar out of its cage...I cant lose this feeling..But i want to let go..OMFG!!!!!!WHAT DO I DO?!?!?!?!??!?!?!