I Just Cant Break Away

I cant break way...I just cant..I don't know why...It seems like all things will be attracted to one magnet which is you..No matter how hard i try...I cant break free...Can anyone pull me out of this..I am trying my very best here...My love is so toxic...It intoxicates me while i am having pleasure...What a masochist i am...I hate being a masochist..I just want to be normal...Have normal feelings....Live a normal life..And not being so egoistic...I don't want to feel bad for the things i do wrong...I just want to be normal...I cant break way...Is anyone out there??!!!

After A Year

A year has past,

A love is lost,

A soul is broken,

A heart is shattered.

A year has past,

A soul still searching for love,

An optimistic soul,

But still in a state of devastation.

A year has past,

Since the day we separated,

Crying till there are no more tears,

Leaving only memories at the back of my head.

A year has past,

I hope that i left foot prints on your heart,

Hoping no wind will be able to wash it away,

But i guess there is no such things as " no winds".

A year has past,

Only memories remain,

My love for you will linger on,

And i hope i will continue to pursue in that direction.

Be Who You Are

This post is inspired by a certain somebody..

Be who you are..Never let anyone tell you you ain't beautiful( i mean ..you get the point)...When they tell you that..All the things that they say..Are all lies..BE who you are...Take control..If you don't like something about yourself..Change it...Listen to your heart and only yours..Take comments and criticism...Judge them..See whether they are reasonable ones or just bullshit...Don't just accept everything the world tells you..Think twice before you act(this is also important in life)...You are who you are..Don't let anyone change that( of course unless change from bad to good)..Don't let people tell you you are immature or something they don't like..(unless you know that you are on the wrong)...Live your life you want to..Not how others tell you to...

P/S: The song "beautiful" by Eminem is damn inspirational..listen to it..You can download it or listen from my music player..

It Is All Just An Act

It is all just an act..Trying to be happy when in reality i am not..Trying to be bubbly but on the inside..Felling sick and bad...Some say a habit is formed while trying to do something continously...Well...I hope that is true..I want to be happy and bubbly..Not just on the outside..But on the inside as well..I am bored of feeling bad...But i just cant let the feeling go..It keeps me sane..And it keeps me from going bananas...I cant let that negative feeling go...It is my source of sanity...And while on the outside..I try to be happy....On the inside...I don't...I want to be happy..And i will always keep myself in check..I don't want to lose this fight..And i will do all it takes...From keeping myself sane..To trying to be happy...And being all patient..To win this long lost race of mine...I will keep trying to act happy..In hopes this act..will eventually become my habit...And when that time comes...I hope that keeping myself sane..Does not require to be feeling shitty about myself anymore...

I Still Cant Find It

I still cant find love,

Is it under a rock,

Or just in front of my face.

I still cant find love,

Days and months have passed,

And i have not seen or heard about love.

I still cant find love,

A sign,a face,a smile,

Or even just a passing phase.

I still cant find love,

Where could you be,

How long should i wait??

I still cant find love,

I will wait Painfully but patiently,

Until you turn up on my front door.

If Love

If love were what the rose is,

And I were like the leaf,

Our lives would grow together,

In sad or singing weather,

Blown fields or flowering closes,

Green pleasure or grey grief.

Time

Time is too long,

For those who suffer.

Time is too short,

For those who prosper.

Time is money,

For those who live for something.

Time is a waste,

For those who live for nothing.

Time is too sudden,

for those who fear.

Time is too slow for those who wait.

But for those who love,

Time is eternity.

I Would Give Anything

I would give anything,

Just to know that you are safe.

I would risk anything,

Just to be with you again.

I would sacrifice anything.

Just to be in your heart again,

I would let go of everything,

Just to say" I love you" again.